The track.

It was just then when I was in one of those thinking moments that I thought to myself that a new year’s resolution wouldn’t be enough for me, because I really need to get my life back on track, and by that I mean I need to get it on the track in the first place. I knew from day one of school that the it wasn’t going to be a place that I did well in; it being school. Now that that’s all behind me though, I really need to stop and think where I want my life to go, and whichever way that is, that will be the way this goes. What I am saying is that this blog is either going to go downhill and just be about nothing over and over again, talking about the shit that I do. I won’t contribute to society or anything and this will be a really depressing spiral into my suicide thing to read. Of course I don’t want that to happen because not only will this be a shit thing to read, but I will end up killing myself, just like I said in the last bit of that sentence.

Instead of that, I am going to turn this blog into the journal of how I am getting my life back on track, and if My Name is Earl taught me anything back in the day that I used to watch TV, I need some kind of a list in order to get my life back on track, or like I said before, on the track to begin with... well not begin with but you know, I just want to get the fuck on that track. I have noticed that whenever I get into one of those ‘where is your life going?’ conversations with mum, I always get out of it by just saying that I am no different than anyone else my age, and by that I mean that I am out all night and sleeping all day. I think that the first thing that this list needs is something that needs changing about me probably the most, and this is something that differentiates me from pretty much everyone else my age. Unlike pretty much everyone else my age, I cannot drive, and by that I mean that I am so lazy that I don’t even have my learners.

Obviously the next step from getting my L’s would be to get my P’s, and once that happens I won’t be that guy who I hate being; the guy who needs a lift everywhere. I know what you are thinking now though, ‘sure, you can get your P’s and drive and that, but petrol costs money, and as I can find in this blog, money is something that you never have’ and that is why the next thing on this list will be to get a fucking job. I often talk about getting a job, but surprisingly enough, and by that I mean it is not very surprising at all, but I haven’t really looked for a job or anything at all. Life isn’t all work though, I mean remember in The Sims, like the first one, when you bought that genie and when you rubbed his lamp or whatever he asked if you wanted work or leisure benefits from whatever it is that he would grant you. This list needs something that I can do that will be good fun or leisure as the purple (I think) genie in The Sims calls it.

I haven’t talked about DJ Hero since I had that blog that was really just about it, and in case you don’t know, I am getting fucking good at it. I used to be really good at Guitar Hero, I mean I did beat Guitar Hero II on Expert, all songs five starred, but I think that my skill from that is being transferred over to DJ Hero because I am just, I am just getting good at it. Before I got the game, I would watch videos on the internet of people playing the game on Expert and I would think to myself, ‘fuck, that game looks impossible, I will never, ever be that good,’ but really, it was only matter of time, and also a matter of having antisocial isolation days where I just sat in my room playing the game before I got good enough to play on Expert, but not only play, but also five star the songs that I play.

I was playing DJ Hero just before and I beat one of the Dizzee Rascal remixes on expert, and I got a fucking good score for it, like, I was amazed at how well I did. I then went over to the leader boards to see what I was ranked in the world for that song and I was like, four hundred and something in the world... so I was just thinking, I should really get to be the best in the world on at least one of these songs in this game by the end of the year. Then I realised that it would be pretty much impossible to do that, so I should aim to get into the top one hundred in the world at a song, I mean that is not only impressive, but also possible.

That is enough leisure, I mean the purple genie can only give so much before he starts to get things wrong and fuck up your wishes... there is another thing in my life that I would love to fix, and that is this fucked up sleeping pattern that I have gotten myself into. I mean right now, it is two fourteen in the morning, and I am not tired at all. I am more concerned of what movie I am going to watch tonight than going to sleep, and by the time a movie finishes and I get to bed it will be like four, maybe even five in the morning. Then I will go to bed, and I will sleep tomorrow until like three in the afternoon, and then the cycle only repeats, every single day.

There is also one other thing that I can’t deny any longer. This is another one of those things that has separated me from most other people, not only my age, but I think like, everyone. I have never watched all of the Star Wars movies, same with Lord of the Rings. I mean I say that they are shit, but I don’t know how I can honestly say that when I have not given either of them a fair go. I tried watching Lord of the Rings the other week when we were living at Andrew’s but I kept falling asleep, so I think I need to watch it when I am not tired at all, and watch them all. Star Wars I don’t know about though, I mean I might have seen them but I am not sure, I know I have seen some of them but I don’t know which ones, so I think that the only fair thing to do would be to watch all three of them, and by that I mean all six of them.

I think that so far, this is a good start to getting my life on the track of normality that I want it to be on. If you are thinking that the blog will be changing into some sort of life helping program or some shit, don’t worry, as the blog will still be what it is. Hopefully though, this list will help me become a better person... I mean probably not like the DJ Hero one and like, watching Star Wars and that but you know, they are just things that I want to do, things that I think need to be done... well not really... but I am sure that when I do them I will feel some form of accomplishment... well maybe not really but I am just going to stop typing now because yeah, I am going to go watch a movie... I’ll put the to do list on the right hand column thingy so you can see where I am up to in life, and yeah... movie time.